Sydney Dobell—"The Orphan's Song"

excerpt from THE ORPHAN’S SONG
(England in Time of War, 1856)

I had a little bird,
I took it from the nest;
I prest it, and blest it,
And nurst it in my breast.

I set it on the ground,
I danced round and round,
And sang about it so cheerly,
With “Hey my little bird, and ho my little bird,
And oh but I love thee dearly!”

I make a little feast
Of food soft and sweet,
I hold it in my breast,
And coax it to eat;

I pit, and I pat,
I call it this and that,
And sing about it so cheerily,
With “Hey my little bird, and ho my little bird,
And ho but I love thee dearly!”

I may kiss, I may sing,
But I can’t make it feed,
It taketh no heed
Of any pleasant thing.

I scolded, and I socked,
But it minded not a whit,
Its little mouth was locked,
And I could not open it.

…

I never look sad,
I hear what people say,
I laugh when they are gay
And they think I am glad.

My tears never start,
I never say a word,
But I think that my heart
Is like that little bird.

Every day I read,
And I sing, and I play,
But thro’ the long day
It taketh no heed.

It taketh no heed
Of any pleasant thing,
I know it doth not read,
I know it doth not sing.

With my mouth I read,
With my hands I play,
My shut heart is shut,
Coax it how you may.

You may coax it how you may
While the day is broad and bright,
But in the dead night
When the guests are gone away,

And no more the music sweet
Up the house doth pass
Nor the dancing feet
Shake the nursery glass;

And I’ve heard my aunt
Along the corridor,
And my uncle gaunt
Lock his chamber door;

And upon the stair
All is hushed and still,
And the last wheel
Is silent in the square;

And the nurses snore,
And the dim sheets rise and fall,
And the lamplight’s on the wall,
And the mouse is on the floor;

And the curtains of my bed
Are like a heavy cloud,
And the clock ticks loud,
And sounds are in my head;

And little Lizzie sleeps
Softly at my side
It opens, it opens
With a yearning strong and wide!

It yearns in my breast,
It utters no cry,
‘Tis famished, ‘tis famished,
And I feel that I shall die,
I feel that I shall die,
And none will know why.
Tho’ the pleasant life is dancing round and round
And singing about me so cheerly,
With “Hey my little bird, and ho my little bird,
And ho but I love thee dearly!”